the end or afresh??
Sunday, October 26, 2008
okies i have end my story last few days...a long journey that i have go thru wif him...finally i decide to end it ...i know i am so sickening or u can say i am curel but you cant say i gt no feeling!! hais i have take very very long to make the decision to end up our 4 +yr r/s..wad i could say is i am really sorry hope you can forgive me and hope we can still be friend bah...if fate wants bring us to be together den we will be together in a day bah...hope you can really take good care of yrself and live better without me!
so many thing bothering me these few days..i am really very shag of being a human alr.how i hope i am just a tree..haha..
tmr goin attend to my friend's wedding buffet..congratz !!! hope u will be happy ever after wif ur hubby bah...
Sunday, October 26, 2008
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Friday, October 17, 2008
Stephanie bought me a dressfor my belated birthday haha so happy! the dress was nice but dunno why whenever i put on its dun looks nice at all lo...hais so sad i buy myself a top oso but i out in le it really dun look nice lo...sadded=(
i must go slp nw le!!! nomatter wad FORCE myself to slp!!
Friday, October 17, 2008
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what am ii doing??
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Out of sudden my tears drop! I FEEL VERY RIDICULOUS NOW..hmmm why am i behave in such way??? how could i cry after listening something from a person that i recently knew not for long?i dunno why i become so emotional ...hais
Am i wishing some fat hope to came true?no no its a big no!!! i cant be so selfish.i cant! en.OMG its 2.30am now..i cant sleep now..and worst thing is that i have to wake up at 6.30am.and rush to work at 4 pm i think i will be very shag tmr SADED =(HELP ME!!!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
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Wednesday, October 15, 2008
我们每个人都有三个自己1. 别人眼中的自己2. 自己眼中的自己3. 真正的自己我呢只知道自己眼中的自己,因为没有一个人会认识真正的自己!你又会是怎样看别人呢?先看脸?看身材 还是。。。。。样貌是女人的最厉害的武器,因为没有人会第一眼看得到你的心。如果你没有漂亮的脸孔那么那个人也不会浪费时间去看你的心。。。I always heard ppl say that - "i dun judge ppl my looks" most impt is i feel comfortable...
bullshit!! if the person looks damn ugly will you go forward to talk with her? or u even won't take a glance at her?其实每个女人都希望自己身边的男人是和她谈心而不是谈性。女人要的是一个会看心和对方谈心,保护自己的男人。但往往男人需要的是行而不是心。。
(i am very agree wif these sentence after i had watch todays channel U's talk)hmmm i just hope that all men will understand women bah!!!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
hais another sun event is cancel...eveytime cancel de =X sorry Zann i think next Sunday den i go wif u so sorry put u aeroplane again wakaka hope u wun mind because these coming Sunday is my another friend birthday den i dun my friend disappointed as birthday 1 yr only once ma...i really dun wan she like me no ppl celebrate wif hais. hope u understand bah..koz the feeling really TERRIBLE ...and NW i think i had no time to relax also le...so many thing are bothering me these few days...and the sad thing is no body really wants to sit down and listens to me maybe i should say there is. BUT the difference is althou they are sitting beside you but they are nt listening even they are listening but their mind is dunno at where lo...i just can feel it!yah.i think the only conversation dun makes me feel that was talking on the phone bah because i dun get to see what was the persons reaction..i can voice out whatever i wants i can laugh as loud as i can!!
SOMEBODY told me this today - ( compare means u wan it to be better) i will take this in heart de..
maybe i can consider to learn skate so that i can skate and feel de wind to relax myself=)
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
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Saturday, October 11, 2008
I am damn shag today!!!
These few days i keep working and make myself busy so that i won't think of those rubbish BUT, BUT when nite approaching...i will automatic become emo and my mind start to flash out things...ytd nite i went to bed at 2am den i keep turn right and left my mind jus dun wan to slp...and tears start to drop out..why?why?and why??
i am a very strong girl infront of friends..i makes them laugh even thou i am sad..i dun cry infron of friends..i just dun want to let them see my ugly face after crying bah..
hmmm never mind tmr going to work again!!! and i will try my best!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
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Thursday, October 9, 2008
I DUNNO WHICH WORD I SHOULD USE TO DESCRIBE MY FEELING
I wonder does it hurt you to know that we haven't spoken to each other in days? Does it hurt you to know that we can't look at each other without looking away? i doubt so? is it?Sometimes I want someone to just hold me when I need it. Not a hug, but just hold me, you know? I need someone who actually really willing to sit beside me and listens to me quietly ..I think nobody will understand bah..The past 4yr i keep thinking of the same thing but i cant do that..i just cant!! me mind tells mi to give up on love but my heart won't let me!!
应为爱的太深所以心会疼。
hmmm in a r/s there will comfirm have 1 party be the bad one although he/she don't wish to do it but sometime is the reality force them to so..My life is about change. I change every day. I change my mind, and sometimes even my heart.and relationship are like glass sometimes its better to leave them broken then tying to hurt yourself by putting it back together..Maybe i will try to walk away from you now, and I'll never look back.Never regret. If it's gOod, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience.CAN I ?
Thursday, October 09, 2008
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心情不好
haiis i am feeling so down!!! =(
CRYS ><
i dunno wad happened to me! i am just so moody today...plus today was really a bad day for me haiis..
wads wrong wif me?? any one wants to lend me his/her shoulder to cry?
i need yr shoulder=(
Thursday, October 09, 2008
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好累!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
i am very tired today! wake up at 8.45am den get ready go work. how o wish i dun need go work how i wish nobody wakes me up early in the morning=(
every Monday wad a hard work for me because i need to do the house work as in CLEAN the whole shop! arrh so tired..
when out eat supper wif my friend after work...stupid BIG head keep making me laugh non-stop..finally i felt relax.BUT..BUT suddently a call makes me freak up!jus because of i din msg or call by bf den he call mi and give me such an unhappy tone..sometimes i will forget something but nobody wants u think i want de meh???ya i dun know to to think before puke out my words 我做不到我答应你的事!BUT did u promise me something??no u din PROMISE me anything!
真正的爱是要让对方快乐,自由,觉得被尊重,被信任,不要让他有压力,爱原本的她!不要尝试去改变她!!
也许分开是一种解脱,让我好想过我想要的那片天空你是不能够给。。。
一直都在想 连我的缺点都珍惜的人 在那里?
我好累好累 有时候在想我为什么要为了一棵树而放弃整个森林?可能在遥远的一个角落有一个连我的缺点都想珍惜的人呢?
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
today went to watch
THE HOUSE BUNNY wif my bf and friends. its was a very nice movie...Woots all the gals of zata was damn SEXY!!!haha...must watch ah...lols..
eugene next time rmb to close ur coffee shop hor dun close half way..LMAO!!
Sunday, October 05, 2008
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in pain
Thursday, October 2, 2008
arrhh!!! today plan to go
singapore post do something but meeting
steph n
yvonne go
bugis first ...everything was
ok in the beginning half way my stupid stomach start to cramp! very very pain you know???
hais girls so
xin ku and ma fan, every
mth need to tolerate
de pain =(
while waiting for them to finish trimming
eyebrown, my stomach suddenly cramp like hell...cant even stand up lo...i find a stairs and sit
dwn rest..how i wish the stairs was my bed..hais.steph buy me
menst.
panadol for me ..then she told me after
dat will be
goin hm together
wif me..i was so happy BUT BUT!!!
jus because of
yvonne sae that at this time
MRT will be very crowded THEN i end up go hm alone.so sad...i sad because i think they
neva care for me bah or am i expect too
much frm them??
but i still happy because
steph asked me weather i gt better
nt...
FUCK lo wasted my time!! i plan to go
Singapore post help my bf do
something de but i cant go..i gt no
strengh to move on
le=( sorry baby...
Thursday, October 02, 2008
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她是。。。。。
我是一个喜欢幻想和织梦的女孩常盼望有一位白马王子出现然后谈一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱因为过于理想化, 所以现实生活中不容易找到一位心目中的白马王子。
“恋爱是麻木的” 这句话一点都不适合我。幻想浪漫爱情的我谈起恋爱一点都不浪漫。
我呢最喜欢看偶像据了,喜欢躲在家里自己一个人看着 喜欢偶像据有时会哭到把自己弄得很丑。
哈哈。有时会幻想自己是那个女主角,是那个公主,被王子保护 ,爱护着的公主。。。
就一直做着自己的白日梦。喜欢浪漫,褐望惊喜的我就算知道那是假的但做白梦就会我满足.
不知道我的白日梦会在现实生活中发生呢?哈哈 童话故事是最美的但它一定不会发生!因为这世界什么都是假的,就算是believe,中间也藏了一个lie!
我想每个人都要痛过,才知道如何保护自己;
哭过,才知道心痛是什么感觉,
傻过,才知道适时的坚持与放弃,
爱过,才知道自己其实很脆弱。
其实,生活并不需要这么些无谓的执著,没有什么就真的不能割舍。
明明不开心,但每天也要坚强的笑着对全世界,更可笑的是还要对自己笑着说:我开心!
因为我帕寂寞所以不喜欢寂寞的感觉。 我常常问自己:我是怎样的?我是如何的?什么才是 ?就再迷失中寻回自己. 再迷失. 再寻回。。。
WISH LIST
♥ Happy ever after with my baby
♥ Camera
♥ New hand phone
♥ Burberry Bag
♥ Learn Salsa Dance
♥ A trip to Japan & Australia
♥ Surgery on.........
♥ A cupboard full of high hills
♥ Lotsa of money so that all my above wish will come true